Sunday, August 24, 2008

Happy Birthday Mom

Today was my mom's birthday. She would have been 56 today. I still miss her like crazy. It's hard to believe that she's been gone for almost ten years now. I wish she could see her grandchildren. She would have loved them so much.

Mom was the one who took care of all of us, and some of us fell apart after she died. I'm not a good replacement I guess. Despite my promise, I can't take care of Dad. She was the only one that could. I never see my brother either much anymore. I guess we all grow up and move on, but I wish we were closer. I really miss my sister. I know she had to move, and now she's stuck, but I wish she'd come home. (Are you reading this?)

So now I am a mom, and my daughter has finally figured out how to say "mama". I pray that I won't leave her behind before it's time. Circle of life right?

Happy Birthday Mom! We're thinking of you always.

1 comment:

Jeni said...

9-13-08 Happy Birthday Mom! Words can't describe how much I miss her. Not a day goes by that I don't think of her. She was such an amazing mother and would have had so much fun being a grandmother. She would have been so proud of us. I wish there was more that I could do to help Dad. I used to be so angry with his choices and decisions after Mom passed. Now I understand how depressed he was and that everyone grieves in their own way. It's sad that his choices were so self-destructive that it ultimately affected his life the way it did. I can relate on some level though. At one point I wanted to end my own life....but suddenly realized what a cop out that would have been. Mom fought so hard to live so that she could be here for all of us. Had I taken my own life, I feel I would have greatly disappointed her. Thankfully, I'm a strong person and made the right decision. I do like it here in Pennsylvania. However, I wish I lived next door to you so we could see each other anytime we wanted and so that our children could grow up together. We gave Mom two beautiful grandbabies and I only hope that we become as great of mothers as she was to us. I love you Michelle. Hope to see you soon! Give Piper lots of hugs and kisses for me and tell her I love her too!